the life of an ordinary bakla

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2018-02-11 - i dont even know
2017-06-21 - for what its worth (or an email i wrote explaining why i haven't been writing as much)
2017-06-20 - how i failed to get accommodations at work (or how work failed me...)
2017-06-12 - this is me trying to write but really just rambling about my health
2017-05-29 - creativity is not a function of my mental illness
2017-05-25 - i forget sometimes
2017-05-17 - how do i ask for accommodations for accommodations?
2017-05-16 - working out how nortriptyline killed my creativity
2017-04-09 - headache med no.2
2017-04-04 - gentle nudges and trying to stay on the path
2017-03-31 - two words i'm coming to hate: lifestyle changes
2017-03-27 - a gentle reminder that i don't put trigger warnings on personal posts
2017-03-17 - there's a tattoo on my face
2017-03-17 - after days of being silly i remember that my blog is my blog and i can do what i want
2017-03-16 - upon realizing u need a medical knight (er advocate)
2017-03-15 - dys/functionally disabled
2017-03-14 - dear doctors who want me to change my 'lifestyle' (read eating habits)
2017-02-25 - Cherry picking and i hate really fucking hate repeating myself
2017-02-09 - everything is so much
2017-01-31 - LIS Mental Health Week - i'm still a fucking mess
2017-01-06 - in which i answer 10 questions about 2016 bc Lisa did it first
2016-10-26 - whence my trans body? some notes on medically transitioning
2016-10-16 - perhaps it is time to be silent
2016-07-31 - in which i vent my frustration with doctors and how we treat chronic illness (again)
2016-07-18 - my biggest ambition is to buy fresh broccoli
2016-07-16 - goodbye patreon
2016-07-15 - agoraphobia as mobility reducer - musings on pokemon go and the false 'physical' vs 'mental' disability distinction
2016-06-29 - feeling good
2016-06-20 - grumble theory and praxis are the same mumble mumble
2016-06-19 - how i walked away from 50k
2016-06-18 - do i want to be a cyborg woman?
2016-06-08 - mixing some catholicism into anito
2016-06-03 - when you're the monster in the bathroom stall
2016-06-02 - i hate to travel but i'm always looking for a home
2016-05-30 - internalizing failure
2016-05-29 - power, love, and relationships
2016-05-21 - when did u first realize u were a girl?
2016-05-18 - i, a happy heterosexual
2016-05-15 - i used to be brave
2016-05-14 - i'm fucking sleepy and fuck moral panic about over-prescribing doctors
2016-05-14 - it lives again
2016-05-09 - updates on the website and other important things
2016-05-07 - in which i think about my ~brand~
2016-05-06 - to bare your soul
2016-05-01 - my experience of having a putatively ~mainstream~ gay
2016-04-22 - after five short years (rumminations of a ladyboy in love)
2016-04-21 - from small to extra large
2016-04-20 - the many layers of being a hairy ladyboy
2016-04-09 - i'm suicidal (2016 edition)
2016-04-05 - the silence around being suicidal
2016-04-02 - cutting my nose
2016-04-01 - maladaptive strategies (or i whine about how hard life is)
2016-03-27 - sloth -- the speed of my thought
2016-03-27 - books, oh books
2016-03-16 - back to writing tomorrow
2016-03-06 - ruminations on another year gone
2016-02-24 - when you're not *that* disabled
2016-02-11 - once upon a time i was an un/popular defendent
2016-02-11 - trying to be spiritual after years of atheism
2016-01-30 - vague thoughts about the Thing that happened last year
2016-01-20 - open letter to pc mastercard
2016-01-13 - srsly? do ppl really underestimate how fucking difficult it is to get employed as a twoc? and...
2015-12-23 - apparently my insomnia has decided to intensify for the winter break, which is a nice treat i...
2015-12-19 - you know. i never actually used to think that i had a problem with impulse control. but i very...
2015-12-19 - yeah. ok. my world is kind of being rocked by the realization that i'm impulsive. as my brain...
2015-12-19 - the other thing that this whole 'shave ur head' thing is really messing with is my...
2015-12-18 - so. i had my consultation to get tits today. i took an ativan bc i was getting super anxious and...
2015-12-03 - my break up with gumroad
2015-11-23 - here is a list of things i don't do criticize ppl and purposefully tag them and/or @ them so..
2015-11-21 - so. there's this weird thing that i see (mostly) in activist circles concerning scent-free...
2015-11-21 - so i think i managed to work myself up into an existential crisis or whatever about my...
2015-11-20 - i think one of the things about having deep knowledge about certain areas is how often, when i share...
2015-11-16 - there is on aspect to the anon critiques i got last week that i want to spend a moment discussing,...
2015-11-14 - one of the things that's been going around my brain for a few days is that, at least at this...
2015-11-14 - after how i slept last night… i officially give up. i took a nap yesterday bc i realized...
2015-11-13 - so. this year has been interesting since i've learned (or confirmed) four things about how my...
2015-11-13 - a request and plea
2015-11-10 - yesterday i posted some links to a newly coined term, "aphantasia”. now, as the...
2015-11-10 - so now that the fun of the past few days appears to be over, i think i'll make this final post...
2015-11-09 - so. yesterday was interesting, eh? to recap i post some of my thoughts on gender nihilism
2015-11-08 - today's been interesting. actually been a while since my big mouth landed me into trouble. the...
2015-11-07 - just saw a post on tumblr talking about how writing (or at least most writers) are generally...
2015-11-06 - i don't usually write about my relationship publicly. but i feel like… there's...
2015-11-03 - it suddenly occurs to me that some ppl might not understand or see the full implications of the fact...
2015-11-02 - i have to say that i really do enjoy (lol) the glorious contradictions that my brain...
2015-11-01 - i don't think i'll ever stop being amused about the fact that i'll listen to a...
2015-10-27 - sooo. for a long while now, i've been hallucinating this smell.
2015-10-26 - Now that I'm sharing images of myself, I realized that I...
2015-10-26 - i'm thinking about putting up a picture of me from 7 years ago or something. one where...
2015-10-26 - does everyone like how cheerful i'm being this morning? lol i really meant it yesterday that...
2015-10-25 - was just realizing that i think i've really come to accept that this world wants me...
2015-10-25 - too hard vs adulting
2015-10-25 - i was talking with someone the other day about why being known as a 'philosopher' was...
2015-10-23 - i read a kind of depressing article the other day. it pretty much suggests that i'm not going...
2015-10-20 - i think one of my favourite things of being a non-cis coding ladyboy is the calculations i end up...
2015-10-19 - Unsurprisingly, someone responded to my 'i'm not an artist' post yesterday with a...
2015-10-18 - This past weekends word festival thing that I was participating in, is (I think) the first time I...
2015-10-18 - other notes about today's panel on 'writing as resistance' ppl really can't...
2015-10-18 - One of the things I find frequently interesting is how much ppl pushback when I tell them that...
2015-10-18 - just saw that super gross post on tumblr with this like… bragging checklist of all the STIs...
2015-10-17 - omg. i was about to complain about seeing a certain white trans woman that i hate on my dash (on...
2015-10-17 - it is official - i cannot spend lots of time around many people
2015-10-17 - i think i decided that i'm going to read something different than i read on thursday....
2015-10-16 - Now that I've made my official debut as real writer in the real world, I figure now is a good...
2015-10-16 - it feels king of weird now. being able to talk about whatever in my life without having to worry...
2015-10-16 - i think the most surprising thing that happened last night is what didn't happen
2015-10-15 - Today. Today I'm doing my first public reading as a writer. I'm still feeling super...
2015-10-15 - this is also what I look like tonight. I can't believe...
2015-10-15 - so. I just did the thing. it was weird but I did it and now it's...
2015-10-12 - so… the past few days have been kind of interesting/weird? i wrote about 4k words on the...
2015-10-10 - so… i'm getting into numerology (in the hopes that i find some way to appropriately...
2015-10-06 - i've been thinking lately that maybe i need to be more sympathetic to ppl in the closet. i...
2015-10-02 - so i said i might try to describe how i've been interacting with with medical professionals...
2015-10-01 - on panic attacks
2015-09-30 - soooo. like. i know i said i'm back from hiatus. but i guess i've just been consumed by...
2015-09-06 - i did want to spend a moment describing what it was like being ace before asexuality was the robust...
2015-09-05 - So I'm a little miffed, still, about that comment about my writing (well, a comment about how...
2015-09-04 - i want to spend a little time digging into my relationship with 'asexual' as both...
2015-09-01 - today i started writing down my blog/topic ideas. i don't tend to forget them often, but...
2015-08-31 - based on a conversation i had earlier today, i just wanted to clarify a few things about what...
2015-08-29 - update on life and stuff
2015-08-29 - ok! i've officially made this tumblr my 'main' blog. something which has never...
2015-08-29 - i also changed blog platforms
2015-08-28 - Changes and Re-prioritizing my time
2015-03-30 - update on life and stuff
2015-03-27 - i also changed blog platforms (again)
2015-02-07 - y u asking for my receipts like the IRS?
2015-01-25 - my experience being hospitalized for depression
2015-01-22 - what happened to the blogger formerly known as biyuti?
2015-01-10 - patreon post 1 -- on my writing process
2014-12-15 - there and back again
2014-12-01 - on what i learned from riley
2014-11-20 - re -- 'my ideas'
2014-11-13 - wandering back
2014-10-05 - updates and stuff
2014-08-02 - part of me is glad that it took me this long to overcome internalized ableism and actually ID as...
2014-07-30 - oh. and for the ppl on the job post mocking me for my perceived lack of employment…. i'm sure a...
2014-07-11 - a comfort to my soul
2014-06-21 - The Vagaries of Having a 'Brand'
2014-06-20 - Twoc Gather -- First Post
2014-06-19 - Amc2014, Day One -- The Most Beautiful Sound in the World
2014-05-12 - one of those days
2014-05-02 - on things i already know
2014-04-25 - the question of marriage
2014-04-24 - of all my regrets
2014-04-17 - so what is happening?
2014-03-24 - a first for me
2014-03-12 - on taking breaks
2014-02-28 - i know that not everyone who reads my posts actually follows me or even knows anything about...
2014-02-14 - Srsly. I often wish it were just possible to walk away. to take a time out. the best i can do is,...
2014-02-14 - on walking away
2014-02-07 - i always find those asks that ask me about a person's individual ID strange. only u get to decide...
2014-02-07 - how things change
2014-02-03 - personal strategies to free myself or the terms of engagement
2014-01-24 - on reaching the end of your rope
2014-01-21 - on encountering a trans woman in public
2014-01-17 - voices
2014-01-13 - one more step at resolving internalised ableism
2014-01-12 - me and agoraphobia
2013-12-27 - unfurling my cape
2013-12-27 - no power
2013-12-27 - artist?
2013-12-25 - the funny thing about not celebrating xmas
2013-12-16 - of the things that make me bitter
2013-12-14 - i know i'm broken
2013-12-02 - update
2013-11-28 - i'm so terrible at arguments
2013-11-19 - on being unapologetically awesome
2013-11-15 - unknowingly awkward
2013-11-14 - because i'm made of fail today
2013-10-18 - wow. okay
2013-10-18 - new medication and other health things
2013-10-05 - surviving neglect
2013-10-01 - another idea i've had…. one thing i've always been fairly good at is decoding...
2013-09-28 - to put it into some context
2013-09-27 - a new standard is being set
2013-09-22 - it really has been on my mind
2013-09-19 - been a while...
2013-09-12 - my first step
2013-09-08 - idky, but i've stopped posting as much here
2013-08-30 - not only looking backwards anymore
2013-08-22 - my relationship with disability and ableism
2013-08-20 - sorrow and something i'll probably always long for
2013-08-18 - sleeping
2013-08-15 - look, ma, i'm professional writer!
2013-08-04 - a small comment on desirability
2013-08-03 - on commonalities between friends and lovers
2013-07-25 - i found that gq thing re tattoos
2013-07-21 - dear biyuti,
2013-07-13 - everyone is abusive and no one is an abuser
2013-07-06 - don't know how to group
2013-06-25 - welp. looks like i'm definitely not doing TO's trans march
2013-06-23 - why does becoming require so much money???
2013-06-11 - some of my mixed race feels
2013-06-07 - what better looks like for me
2013-06-05 - there is a part of me that is feeling freer
2013-06-05 - one of my biggest problems
2013-06-03 - nothing quite like the realization
2013-05-30 - tw disassociation
2013-05-23 - fun fun fun
2013-05-21 - I feel like it has been forever...
2013-05-21 - fuck
2013-05-13 - a quick sketch of my philosophical positions
2013-05-07 - updated plan of action
2013-04-27 - Although,
2013-04-21 - My year in review (at long last)
2013-04-14 - abuse with no abusers
2013-04-14 - a few personal notes about the sda church
2013-04-12 - remembering not to drown
2013-04-08 - today in this biyutiful life
2013-04-08 - strangely (or maybe not)
2013-04-05 - reflections on my behaviour
2013-03-26 - note to self
2013-03-26 - lost years
2013-03-17 - a little bit strange...
2013-03-12 - lessons imperfectly learned -- what i've learned from @metalmujer
2013-03-03 - i think i need to accept
2013-02-24 - i've mentioned before that i'm not very nuanced in my thinking this leads to me...
2013-02-21 - so. my hope for biyuti publishing, after I take care of some of my becoming related expenses (and...
2013-02-21 - musings for my tattooooo
2013-02-20 - I think what happened yesterday is finally making me realize that I need to stop acting like...
2013-02-16 - tattooing homework, part one the past
2013-02-11 - okay. so i finally read the email from my mom (asking her about me as a kid) and I'm not...
2013-02-03 - reflections on
2013-01-31 - wake up call for myself.
2013-01-07 - aspirations
2013-01-04 - vagaries of the past
2013-01-04 - internet popularity
2013-01-03 - after all these years
2012-12-31 - pointless musing on not much at all :P
2012-12-30 - birthday musings
2012-12-27 - something that i think is necessary but will be tough to do
2012-12-26 - closing thoughts on a longish day
2012-12-25 - fork mayo
2012-12-23 - Excerpt 1 -- for people curious as to what I'm writing about for my book
2012-12-22 - another word I think i like for myself
2012-12-21 - thoughts apropos of nothing
2012-12-20 - asian privilege
2012-12-19 - So... I just took an online IQ test
2012-12-17 - something I learned a while back
2012-12-15 - so. back from the party I was at. and. other than the two of us Asians. All white people. managed...
2012-12-13 - as i continue to learn about nld and how i think my brain works
2012-12-12 - dear self, you are worthy
2012-11-21 - an ode to bitterness
2012-11-04 - thoughts on batok
2012-10-23 - my last word
2012-10-12 - mind recently blown
2012-10-03 - It still hurts
2012-10-01 - Plan of action
2012-10-01 - balance and life.
2012-09-19 - may 5, pride 2012
2012-09-19 - I hate to say it...
2012-09-08 - what happens when I'm triggered
2012-09-05 - careers are exhausting
2012-09-01 - Thinking about going back to therapy and maybe doing medication...
2012-08-29 - migration complete
2012-08-28 - Migration almost complete...

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