i dream of being possible

i often well dont feel stupid exactly but

i often… well, don’t feel stupid exactly

but confused and unsure

not really about my ideas and thoughts

but about whether or not i’m allowed to have them and express them

(i often, also, get confused about when it is/isn’t appropriate for me to say something)

part of this is a result of my anxiety

another is a result of being silenced for so long.